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09 April 2010 @ 09:01 pm
02 next to you (but you just can't see me)  
next to you (but you just can't see me)
doojoon/yoseob; g, angst, heartbreak, drabble
when there's a hole in your heart and your world is falling apart, who will be the one to heal you?
a/n. first Beast fic! :D /excited lol this is the result of listening to so many sad (English) songs. it's been a while since i wrote something, i hope it isn't too bad. comments are love

If your heart wears thin, I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you,
I'll be right beside you.

-- beside you, marianas trench

doojoon looks to his left. nothing. he looks to his right. nothing. it's so empty, quiet, and dead.

the apartment, which once used to be loud and bright (because of him), is now just furniture and walls. the bedroom is dark and filled with cold sadness; the curtains are drawn down, blocking any rays of sunlight.

in the middle of the bedroom, there is doojoon lying on the bed with his eyes closed and arms spread out. he shifts a little and buries his head into the pillow beside him. when he inhales, doojoon can smell just a faint scent of his lover. he shuts his eyes tighter, willing the tears to go away.

no matter how hard doojoon tries, he hears only the deadly silence, not even the traffic outside on the streets. where are you, yoseob?

a tear from his eyes trickles down the side of his face. and soon doojoon is breaking down into sobs; tears are flowing out uncontrollably from within him. he's crying, crying so hard that his head hurts, hoping maybe the tears would stop coming. doojoon wants the pounding in his head to stop and the hole in his heart to close back up. why won't you come back?

he clutches harder on the pillow next to him, and cries himself to sleep. he welcomes the darkness in his mind, too tired to stop it.

doojoon, in the midst of the darkness, hears a voice, a voice that he can recognize in a heartbeat because it's engraved into his mind.

don't cry. please. it's okay, i'm right here. within your heart. just please stop crying, because it hurts me to see you cry. i love you...

and doojoon wakes up to a soft touch brushing against his cheek, almost as if to wipe away his tears.

he still sees nothing and hears silence. but at least the hole in his heart no longer seems to be so empty.


Current Location: home
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: perfect - hedley
aniia_tdaniia_td on April 10th, 2010 12:39 pm (UTC)
awww. this is so sweet in a way&sad :(
I'm crying -.-

More Dooseob!!!
puff & the paper;: beast / dooseobkt_luvu26 on April 12th, 2010 02:41 am (UTC)
awww i'll try to make them happier next time ^^;; thanks for reading~
make happiness a habit ♥yunsias on April 10th, 2010 03:26 pm (UTC)

But this is so beautiful and heart-wrenching. Yoon leader always look so strong that it hurts to even imagine him crying and breaking down.

This reminds me of a Cantonese song lmao.
puff & the paper;: beast / dooseobkt_luvu26 on April 12th, 2010 02:43 am (UTC)
i know~ ;__; i didn't want to, i just always end up writing angsty fics ):

lol really? which Cantonese song?
make happiness a habit ♥: DooJoon: you'll be my color?yunsias on April 12th, 2010 03:22 pm (UTC)
:( Write happier things!

手望 by Ivana Wong & Hins Cheung
puff & the paper;: beast / dooseobkt_luvu26 on April 12th, 2010 09:48 pm (UTC)
But happier things from me would end up being really cheesy ):

i don't usually listen to Cantonese songs, aside from the ones my mom listens to me, which is like the ones back in the day lol But this one was really beautiful, I loved the piano in bg. :)
make happiness a habit ♥yunsias on April 13th, 2010 11:54 am (UTC)
I like cheesy things! :D

It's a very sad song, I cried once or twice while listening to it.
sarangx33 on April 10th, 2010 03:45 pm (UTC)
This is very sweet. Sad :( but sweet, nonetheless. You did a wonderful job. :)
puff & the paper;: beast / dooseobkt_luvu26 on April 12th, 2010 02:46 am (UTC)
thank you for reading & commenting (:
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puff & the paper;: beast / dooseobkt_luvu26 on April 12th, 2010 02:47 am (UTC)
i'm glad you liked it ^^